I'm sorry. I know I can be hard to deal with, I just want to be loved. You were the only guy that's ever loved me and it's frustrating to know that all these girls are fawning over you and there's nothing I can do about it. What I want you to know is that no matter what, I want to be with you . We've gone through so much and we keep ending up together. When things like that happen it's hard to ignore. I know we've both been through shit we didn't deserve, some even from each other, but you're the only person that helps me forget about that stuff. I know this is all stupid girly mushy stuff but it's all true. I love you, you were my first kiss and I want you to be my last. There was a time not so long ago when I stopped believing in love but then you came back into my life. And who can deny something like that? At this point I'm hanging on to the belief that the 3rd time's a charm. There's no one else I want, no one I even want to think about. You're it for me and I can see that now, and I'm going to do everything in my power to keep you happy. I'm sorry I haven't been doing a very good job of that lately. I got lost in my emotions. Anyway, I just wanted to say thank you for coming back to me, thank you for caring about me enough to worry (even though I don't want you to worry about me), and thank you for being the only guy who's ever made me feel like I matter. <3